Life's a bitch and so is my ex-girlfriend
* Today I am mostly listening to: Beyonce – Single Ladies *
So, after a lot soul-searching, indecision, and questioning of my inner self (see previous post), I took the plunge and officially got together with Fifi Trixibelle. But as with most things in life, I guess it just wasn't meant to be. We broke up on Tuesday.
To start off with, I was the one with the issues, I just wasn't sure if I could commit to a relationship, I wasn't sure if I was at that stage. Well, I decided I was ready, and took the plunge, and it was great, I really felt we got on and had fun together. But, guess what? I was wrong. Over text, she asked if we could have a serious talk. Well, that immediately set off alarm bells. She wanted to do it in person the following night, but with me being the impatient type, couldn't wait a whole day, so had to have the conversation there and then.
It seems that she hadn't been feeling right for a couple of weeks, and that actually, she wasn't ready to be in a relationship after all (hold on, weren't those initially my feelings?). She thought she was ready, but it became clear to her that she wasn't. Things just weren't feeling right, and she was getting increasingly freaked out (her harsh words). Well, thank you very much. That was a slap in the face if there ever was one.
Yes, I'm moaning, I'm angry, and I'm hurt. I'd really started to like her. It was so nice to have some one that shared the same interests, the same humour, and so many other things. But I have to ask myself, was it just nice to feel wanted again? We had a lot of similarities, but we also had a lot of differences. Would it have even worked? Am I just angry and hurt because she dumped me? I don't know, lots of questions, and I don't think I'm in the right frame of mind right now to decide.
So, after a lot soul-searching, indecision, and questioning of my inner self (see previous post), I took the plunge and officially got together with Fifi Trixibelle. But as with most things in life, I guess it just wasn't meant to be. We broke up on Tuesday.
To start off with, I was the one with the issues, I just wasn't sure if I could commit to a relationship, I wasn't sure if I was at that stage. Well, I decided I was ready, and took the plunge, and it was great, I really felt we got on and had fun together. But, guess what? I was wrong. Over text, she asked if we could have a serious talk. Well, that immediately set off alarm bells. She wanted to do it in person the following night, but with me being the impatient type, couldn't wait a whole day, so had to have the conversation there and then.
It seems that she hadn't been feeling right for a couple of weeks, and that actually, she wasn't ready to be in a relationship after all (hold on, weren't those initially my feelings?). She thought she was ready, but it became clear to her that she wasn't. Things just weren't feeling right, and she was getting increasingly freaked out (her harsh words). Well, thank you very much. That was a slap in the face if there ever was one.
Yes, I'm moaning, I'm angry, and I'm hurt. I'd really started to like her. It was so nice to have some one that shared the same interests, the same humour, and so many other things. But I have to ask myself, was it just nice to feel wanted again? We had a lot of similarities, but we also had a lot of differences. Would it have even worked? Am I just angry and hurt because she dumped me? I don't know, lots of questions, and I don't think I'm in the right frame of mind right now to decide.
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